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Archive for July, 2009

FISH LAKE AND LITTLE BUTTE CREEK

I took a much needed hike  in nature. I had a lot of things to sort out and contemplate. There is nothing like surrounding myself in the perfection of nature the problem is when I have to go…but even looking at the pictures brings back the gentle reminders…this is just one of those rare days when I have nothing to say.

There are fires burning so many pictures do not have a blue sky depending on the direction. The mountain in the photos is Mount McLaughlin. Fish lake is actually a reservoir.

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HIKING IN THE SIERRAS VII

Yes these are the end off the hiking photos!!!

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HIKING IN THE SIERRAS VI

For those of you who aren’t sick of photos of the Sierras yet!! Work has me running ragged this week!  Had to put something up!!!

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RUMI FOR TIFFANY


SEATTLE OR CARNIVOROUS PLANTS ?

I was talking to one of my friends on the phone. She has a grandson who is one of those geniuses that when he was 3 I knew he was way more intelligent than I am. He has had many difficulties in school fitting in; you know how most teachers and adults are threatened by youngsters who outshine them. He is in second grade and had to correct me that Vladimir Putin is not the president but the prime minister of Russia. I loved it.

Anyway my friend was relaying that he came up to her with a moral question.

What would you rather choose.

Seattle turning into pie?

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or the earth taken over by giant carnivorous plants?

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have a nice day….


HIKING IN THE SIERRAS V

These are more photos of what is above the waterfalls. I had imagined a great big lake surrounded by a meadow with elk and deer grazing

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Yep that’s a damn dam.

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The reservoir.

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When my skateboarding guitar and drum loving nephew who had declared he hates nature came out west he was in awe of how much bigger everything is out here. The mountains the skies the valleys…it humbles you while filling you with possibilities and a sense of something that you can’t quite grasp..something within us that we have not recognized previously, something that might make us be able to take in and expand that we just might be a part of such greatness. I never really felt that way on the east coast.

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just look at that

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these flowers are so precious

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yes that is yet another reservoir

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MARTHA ALVAREZ SPEAKS OF ABUSE FROM CHIEF BERNARD RED CHERRIES

To learn more about this issue please read  THE ABUSE PAPERS.

I had to take a break from this issue due to vacation and work issues….plus I have had a lot of personal turmoil about the issue. My head spins sometimes from the multitudes of personalities and lies put forth by Lisa/Eaglewingwoman/Beverly H. I have a tendency to believe people when they comment on a situation not being used to the idea that people are not always as they portray themselves online. Someone has to keep reminding me that I may be dealing with a man who has mental problems and that most of the things that the personalities say is not true. I sometimes feel like there should be a support group for people confused and confounded by Bernard Red Cherries and his supporters.

Martha Alvarez  is a young woman who spent part of her childhood with a man who calls himself Chief Bernard Red Cherries 6th Generation Spiritual Leader and Sundance/Arrow Priest, Chief of the Northern Cheyenne Elk Society
Chief Headsman Northern Cheyenne Elk Society. This is an e-mail that was sent to Eugene Johnson and read on Sal Serbin’s radio show INDIGENOUS SOUNDS on WSLR 96.5 fm in Sarasota Florida.

Robert was a controlling man. When I was a little girl, I remember him being nice, almost like a savior when we moved to Montana. We were in a group home in Warm springs and apparently it was Robert’s idea to come and get us. He told my mother to get the kids and bring them back here. She did. After a while that man went away. As to the extent of our abuse, I remember the most because I was older about 7 or so. My little brothers were 2 and 5 when we moved there. He abused us in every form except sexual. He whipped us with anything, 2x4s, extension cords, belts. And not just our butts. I know the difference. I recall being drug through the house on numerous occasions, pulled up off the ground by my hair, yelled at, threatened, belittled, etc.

The worst for me was the mind games. he would always tell us to go to our room…the back room and we would know what was coming, almost like walking down Death Row. And most to the time we didn’t even know what we had done. On one occasion, my brother Tommy Joe and I were in the back room and  Robert walked in with his belt in one hand. We were both crying, of course, and he holds out his finger to me and says “Pull it”. Tommy looks at me and vice versa. We look at him. I just stood there looking at him. He turns to my little brother and says “Pull it.” Tommy still crying, put out his hand and pulled his extended finger. Robert farted and started laughing and said “Get out of here.”

He also liked to use guns, rifles on my mother. I actually saw this. My mother has never really mentioned anything else but that about what happened to her behind the doors. We were made to call him Dad. I didn’t want to but we didn’t have a choice. When people use the expression “walking on eggshells,” we really did. He would tell us not to go outside when he wasn’t there and we would listen. That’s the type of control he had over us. We weren’t allowed to talk at the dinner table, only he was. We were the family that has been seen and not heard, truly. It felt like we were there for appearances. Looking back now, I was always the defiant one. I don’t think I realized that until now.

Here is another statement made by Martha Alvarez.


I want to thank Eugene and Rhonda for everything they are doing. Thanks to anyone else that has come forward, for standing up to persons not mentioned. I truely appreciate it.

As to those organizations or persons protecting him I’m not hiding, and why would you conceal something so wrong! I’m not afraid. Why don’t you ask me what happened? This issue truely is one sided, you don’t have my side, my mothers, or even truely my little sisters, if in fact she has been contacted. Every thing I have done is out of love even if you don’t see it that way.

It has been many years but I remember and I’m not a liar. We are not the only family.

Eugene is right I never said anything about sexual assault, I don’t know where that is coming from.

I’m here and I’m standing up for what I know is true. You can’t erase what happened to us, or anyone else for that matter. Your big performance isn’t going to hide the truth much longer. It’s all just an act, a show, and you enjoy it. The thrill, power, and attention. This is truely my life, my memories.

I wonder if you protect all corrupt persons in places of leadership or athority to this extent. Does the issue of abuse of children, women, families mean nothing? No matter how long ago it was. Does his position entitle him to hurt people with out any consequences?

Were we not wronged in all of this? Don’t you even consider all the pain this has done to us and then to insult us by calling us liars, to say it never happened would be the lie. I’ve tried to let it go, live my life, but it still affects me to this day. I’ve never even got an apology or a sign of remorse which confirms he has not changed since then, at all.

I’m not going to stay silent any longer. I played that part of obedient daughter. I’m not backing down. I do have a past and I’m not afraid of it.

My motivation in all this is my family and for me. I’m taking back my power that was stolen from me all those years ago. For every thing I heard, saw, experienced, and for the ones that endured it with me. For those who aren’t strong enough yet.

You won’t scare me away, the pain of that life is to strong to let you!

Martha Alvarez | Homepage | 05.15.09 – 2:34 pm | #

I am adding this because it is a beautiful comment from Martha’s mother.

MAYBE NOT THE FIRST BUT DEFINATELY NOT THE LAST! AS I SIT HEAR AND READ ALL OF THESE PEOPLES TRUETHS AGAIN IN MY MIND – I THINK “MY DAUGHTER MARTHA ONCE AGAIN STOOD UP FOR NOT ONLY HER MOTHER, SISTERS & BROTHERS WHILE LIVING IN BERNARDS HOME IN LAME DEER BUT SHE HAS THE COUARGE TO SHOW ME ONCE AGAIN THAT THIS WAS THE TRUTH AND I DONT HAVE TO BE AFRAID TO SAY IT, PUBLICLY. SORRY I AM NOT VERY EDUCATED, OR INTUITIVE BUT I DO HAVE ALOT OF FEELINGS. I M SORRY TO SAY MY DAUGHTER: DELLA ANN RED CHERRIES IS NOW IN COFFEE CREEK – STATE PRISON IN OREGON. I AM SAYING THANK YOU MARTHA FOR ALWAYS BEING THE LEVEL HEADED, STRONG & PAINFULLY HONEST WOMEN YOU HAVE GROWN INTO. MY GRANDSON IS LUCKY TO HAVE YOU HELPING HIM ALONG NOT LETTING ANY HURT HIM FOR ANY REASON.

MY NAME IS LOIS AND I AM MARTHAS MOM.

BERNARD HAS NEVER EVER SAID HE WAS SORRY TO ME OR MY CHILDREN AFTER ALL THE FIVE(5) YEARS WE SUFFERED FOR “THE CHEYENNE PEOPLE” LIVING IN LAME DEER, MT.

THANK YOU WE ALL NEED PRAYERS…

ONE OF THE EX’S | 04.26.09 – 3:00 pm | #

And this precious thank you.

I’m really taken back by what one little e-mail has generated. Honestly I’m shocked people took time to listen. It’s been many many years coming and I’m glad people are finally seeing what we saw all those years. Thank you, all of you. I never thought of my self as a strong person I’m only doing what I thought was right for my family. For me it is justice just having people acknowledge what he has done not only to my family but others as well. I can remeber one to many times people of authority turned their backs on us because Robert was a medicine man to his people. To young children it destroys a sense of trust in those figures. Any of those who know him like I do understand it’s not easy facing those memories but I’m not seven anymore and I’m not going to let him have that hold on me any longer. I will never forgive or forget but I will pray for him. As to my little sister I’m only sorry I couldn’t help her more than what I’m doing right now. To my mother, wow, I never knew you saw me like that. To Rhonda thank you once again for seeing both sides of the story. For everyone else thanks for outing Bernard Redcherries, Robert Coltte, or whatever name he chooses to go by now or in the future.

Thanks once again for simply listening

Martha | Homepage | 04.28.09 – 3:02 am | #


HIKING IN THE SIERRAS IV

More photos of the hike

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When you are hiking these old trees are like Gods

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this is Rush Creek above the falls

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the Sierras are so awesome….and I haven’t even been in the paid part!

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This is before the reservoir

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ANNA MAE AQUASH 60/JANCITA EAGLE DEER MEETS ex GOVERNOR BILL JANKLOW part III

All excerpts are in italics and from THE UNQUIET GRAVE by Steve Hendricks.

Previously a young Jancita Eagle Deer alleges that Bill Janklow raped her. The investigation, like many rape investigations on reservations at the time (I hope things have gotten better),is poorly conducted with adults hesitating, unwilling to do their jobs. Years later she attends a press conference publicly stating that she was victimized. The press conference does not end well for her and she is accused of making up the story by Bill Janklow”s lawyer Jeremiah Murphy.

The story continues…

The reporters never asked how Jeremiah Murphy had seen the papers he said he had seen, papers like Eagle Deer’s school and medical records. these were personal documents, protected by law from prying eyes like Murphy’s, as any lawyer would have known. ….

Nor, above all, did reporters investigate the truth or falsity of the competing stories told by Murphy and Eagle Deer. They simply decreed Eagle Deer wrong.

A  few days later, the Court of the Rosebud Sioux Tribe, Judge Mario Gonzales presiding, convened to hear evidence In re disbarment of William Janklow. The only reporter in attendance was Minnesota freelancer Kevin McKiernan. Janklow did not attend either, though Gonzalez had ordered him to appear and show cause why he should not be disbarred. Gonzalez had also ordered a BIA police officer to bring the BIA’s file on the alleged rape, but the officer’s superiors ordered him not to give Gonzalez the “confidential” file.This was a large insult. Virtually every court in the nation was entitled to review police records when relevant to a case at hand. For the BIA to  say that Judge Gonzalez could not see the records was tantamount to saying that his court was no court.

There was irony in this turn of events because tribal courts had been created a century before by the Indian Bureau to strip traditional chiefs of power and give it to Indian Judges who could be kept servile.

Gonzalez answered the BIA’s insult by jailing the officer who refused to hand over the file and promising the same for his superiors if they set foot on the reservation. Judge Bogue immediately reversed Gonzalez and, more insult to injury, misspelled his name.

Dennis Banks proceeded with his case, calling twenty witnesses against Janklow.

Eagle Deer testified, in Gonzalez’s words, “in obvious discomfort at reliving old horrors.” He found her testimony entirely credible. Kaye Lord and others recounted the rape as Eagle Deer had told them, and eagle Deer’s medical records, unlike her police file, were produced by the hospital. Contrary to the press-conference claim of Jeremiah Murphy, the records contained evidence of some kind, not made explicit by Judge Gonzalez, that was consistent with a claim of sexual assault.

“Furthermore,” Gonzalez wrote, “the evidence indicates that an obstruction of justice followed the rape. When a complaint was being made to the Bureau of Indian Affairs Special Officer, Janklow was there. No relief or representation was possible through the Legal Services Program since Mr. Janklow ran it…..testimony indicates that as recently as two months ago, Mr. Janklow offered Miss Eagledeer’s grandfather money after inquiring about her. The depth of the suffering which Miss Eagledeer conveyed in her testimony cannot be reproduced through words on paper. Feeling shame, she left the Rosebud Reservation and returned only once until today. Her foster parents testified that her grades and interest in school fell after she was raped. She still feels frightened and inhibited by the beastly act committed against her by Mr. Janklow. It can only be hoped that she will come to realize that she should hold her head up proud for she has not guilt. She is a victim.”

Gonzalez disbarred Janklow from tribal court, then went one better and issued a warrant for his arrest.

The newspapers of the state might have been expected o give at least a few paragraph to the warrant, to the disbarment , or to the finding that Janklow had raped Eagle Deer.

They did not.



MORNING IN GRANTS PASS

I have been so busy with work and traveling this week I had to get to the Farmer’s market in Grants Pass. I hate driving 30 miles to buy organic vegetables but its the first time this year. Took off fairly early (for me) so I would miss the heat. I bought lots of stuff, salad mix, fingerling potatoes, 4 varieties of garlic(I love garlic and put it in everything!) lots of tomatoes, baby onions, green beans, patty pan and zucchini squash. Oh I can’t forget the slicing cucumbers and the lemon cucumbers and the chicken eggs. I was hoping that the man I buy duck eggs from would be there but he wasn’t. Oh the eggplant was ready too! I haven’t been doing so well on the diet thing so I stayed away from all of the wonderful baked goods.

After I put the sensitive veggies in the cooler I took a walk around Grants Pass. The best way to describe Grants Pass is a community that is successful in the co-existence of spirtitul, artistic and blue collar people. Not that blue collar can’t be spiritual or artistic but there are many towns in Oregon where the mill workers would not be open to a variety and a place that is commercially spiritual like Ashland tends to disregard blue collar as beneath them.

The artists also painted doors and they are scattered around town.

STATUE OF A GOLD MINER

STATUE OF A GOLD MINER

THERE WAS A VINTAGE CAR SHOW ALSO

THERE WAS A VINTAGE CAR SHOW ALSO. SOME WERE PARKED AROUND TOWN

OLD TOWN GRANTS PASS

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NOT SURE WHAT SORT OF TREE OR SHRUB THIS WAS....BUT IT WS COOL

NOT SURE WHAT SORT OF TREE OR SHRUB THIS WAS....BUT IT WAS COOL

I cropped some of the doors because there was to much clutter in the background in addition there was also sidewalk sales going on…so the there were lots of tables in some areas. Both sides are painted but some were obscured so I could only take one side.

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TRAVELING

I was out of town for work and it ended up being for two days instead of one…I try to schedule posts for when I am gone but lots of things have been building up and I needed time for contemplation. It has been hotter than hell and last night I tried to go hiking in the forest but forgot my backpack for water and bug spray. I have never seen this many mosquitos away from water at this time of year ….and they are hungry. Usually they won’t really bite your face but they were. Here are a very few photos. I did a lot of socializing and not so much taking pictures. The ones I took in the forest did not turn out.

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Off to the Grants Pass Farmers Market!!!


HIKING IN THE SIERRAS III

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I have to make my way back to the tracks in order to get up the mountain to see where those falls come from

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Exhausted and resting…..

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Even the in shape hikers struggle with this….but they left me in the dust!!

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Can you believe there was a trail going up here the whole time??? That’s what I get for not stopping at the visitors center!

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There is fairly new horse shit on this trail apparently very brave people actually go trail riding on this?? I have heart failure just thinking about it! What if the horse spooks or steps in the wrong place…They aren’t like humans they can’t see where they are putting their feet…


HIKING IN THE SIERRAS II

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Now I have to go down to make it to the waterfalls

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CAMEL SPIDER???

Here is one of the scary critters that were trying to thieve into my Mom’s house. Fast and hungry….

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Next is a small camel spider they are not actually spiders..

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ANNA MAE AQUASH 59/JANCITA EAGLE DEER MEETS exGOVERNOR BILL JANKLOW part II

All excerts are in italics and from THE UNQUIET GRAVE by Steve Hendricks.

Previously young Jancita who grew up on the Rosebud Reservation has been placed in foster and the future Governor of the State of South Dakota Bill Janklow has taken her under her wing helping her with boarding school placement, adoption by her foster parents, family dinners with his wife and small children. All of this interest in a young girl has led to an accusation of rape by Jancita…and very suspicious behavior from the future Governor Bill Janklow

Dennis Banks became interested in the story of Jancita Eagle Deer in 1974…

But there was not proof , no investigative reports from Pitchlynn or the FBI, no medical exam, no physical evidence. The case was a classic he -said/she-said.

…Banks was shown Peter Pitchlynn’s BIA  report by officials of the Rosebud tribal government who were friendly to AIM. Whatever the origin and nature of the new discoveries, they convinced Banks to file a claim against Janklow. he did not, in Rosebud Tribal Court, in October 1974…

Because tribal courts do not have jurisdiction over major crimes on reservations (federal courts do), AIM accused Janklow not of rape per se but of conduct unbecoming a member of the tribal bar. (Janklow had been a member of the bar since his legal aid days on Rosebud.) In addition to the rape claim, Banks accused Janklow of drunken driving, disobeying police officers, perjury, and malpractice. Judge Gonzalez received the complaint, ordered a hearing to determine whether the would-be-attorney general should be disbarred, and appointed Banks special prosecutor-a rare turnabout of an Indian prosecuting his white prosecutor.

…a small weekly newspaper of discreetly leftist views called a press conference in Sioux Falls. The featured speakers were Jancita Eagle Deer and Peter Pitchlynn. Eagle Deer, looking exhausted and frail, was given the microphone first. She said, in a voice almost too faint to be heard, (a common occurrence for someone who has had their power taken away.) that seven years ago she had been raped by Bill Janklow. Reporters asked her to speak up. She did for a few moments, but her voice dribbled back down again. The reporters asked again, she tried again, failed again. After a few minutes, the host, publisher Richard Barnes, suggested that Eagle Deer take some time to collect herself and gave the podium to Peter Pitchlynn.

Pitchlynn said that when he investigated the case in 1967 he believed Eagle Deer’s claim that Janklow had raped her, and he still believed her today. He had recommended Janklow be prosecuted. He assumed the FBI agent who had investigated the case after him, and whose investigation trumped his, had disagreed, but he didn’t know. The agent and the assistant U.S.attorney who declined to prosecute were both white; Pitchlynn was Indian.

When the microphone was returned to Eagle Deer, a man named Jeremiah Murphy took over the questioning. Murphy was not a reporter but a lawyer, Bill Janklow’s lawyer to be precise.

“Wasn’t Bill Janklow your guardian?” he asked Eagle Deer.

“No sir,” she said. “It was my foster parents, Mr. and Mrs. Johnny Arcoren.”

“But didn’t Bill get you into this girl’s dorm, and didn’t he sign as your guardian?”

“No, he didn’t get me-”

“Why do the records show that?”

Eagle Deer said she had no idea.

“Another question. To constitute a rape there must be penetration. According to the prosecutor’s office on the Rosebud Reservation and the doctor’s reports at the Rosebud Hospital, there was no penetration. How could it be rape?”

“There was,” she protested.

“The doctor’s report shows there was no penetration, nothing happened, no physical abuse to you, no marks on your body whatsoever.”

“That’s not true.”

“It’s right there in black and white, on the reservation, in the hospital.”

“I guess Bill Janklow bought the doctor out-and the tribal chairman-” stammered Eagle Deer, clearly grasping at reeds.(This is so sad…I have to keep starting and stopping in order not to become enraged…many prayers for Jancita.)

“The records are still there,” Murphy said. “I looked at them last week.” He changed direction. “Isn’t it also true that you showed up on Bill Janklow’s doorstep since he’s been in Pierre? You’ve been to his house, you’ve called him on the telephone?”

“Yes, I called him once about two years ago.”

“And you’ve been at his house in Pierre.”

“No. I’ve never been to his house.”

“Now, there’s hotel records that show that you were in Pierre.”

“Yes, I was in Pierre.”

“And you were at his house, and Bill Janklow paid for that room so that you’d stay away from his house.” (WOW isn’t this whole exchange indicative of Bill Janklow’s inappropriate behavior??? If someone accuses you of rape do you pay for their hotel seven years later??? Jancita’s behavior is typical of someone who has never received treatment for their victimization.)

“I’ve never been at his house. he told me he would help me if ever I needed help. And so I called him. I was going through a divorce and, uh-”

“Well, if this man raped you, why in the hell would you call him for help? You said he’s threatened your life, you said he’s reaped you. And then you call this man and say, “Would you help me get a divorce?”

Murphy did not subscribe to the theory that victims could become psychologically attached to their victimizers.

“I didn’t ask him to help me get a divorce,” Eagle Deer said. “I figured he would probably do me some good if he would just help me.”

Murphy then begins to question Pitchlynn becoming more and more angry with each question.

Finally he ejaculated, “Somebody’s after Bill Janklow’s ass!…I’ve never been upset in my life, but there’s a man out there with a family, with some kids that he’s got to explain to in the morning things that were put on the television about him.”

Publisher Richard Barnes interjected, “Well, what about Jancita when she was a kid?”

“Jancita, when she was a kid, was represented by the man who’s now Attorney General Kermit Sand’s campaign chairman-Harold Doyle, the United States district attorney at the time. She was represented by good people. There was no case. It was a put-up job. You’ve been calling all over the state. Why didn’t you call and check the records on the reservation? You’ll find out that you need the U.S. attorney before you look at the damn things.”

With that, Murphy shoved papers at Eagle Deer, Pitchlynn, and Barnes-summonses for a defamation lawsuit Janklow intended to file against them-and the conference came to a close.

The story does not end here…more later…many prayers to all involved.



HIKING THE SIERRAS I

You all are going to probably get tired of these photos of a hike in the Sierras…I was a bit too out of shape to be on this particular as I was in much pain when I got back.

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That waterfall at the top of the photo are what I am trying to get to….actually my goal is to hike above them.

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That’s my brother…I’m gonna take a different route that is a little more safe…

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Finally got some where…

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This was a very nice tree where I rested and drank lots of water…I’m trying to get to some old tram tracks

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Finally!…looking down. You can’t really go straight up from but bottom because its private property….no tresspassing. I don’t think that they  really care its for legal reasons.

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Need to start climbing

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Thank God it leveled off!!

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There is a creek that runs through here from another waterfall…finally some shade

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A long way to go still

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some of the sights

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More tomorrow


MORE VACATION PHOTOS

I cleaned my bunny's grave

I cleaned my bunny's grave

the night was filled with beasties this is a scorpion that was trying to get into my mom's house...its not a spider we speculated that it was a young scorpion?? Maybe Runningwolf will know? It was scary and moved unbelieveably fast...we killed 3 in one night!! I lived there a year and never saw one of these critters

the night was filled with beasties this is a scorpion that was trying to get into my mom's house...its not a spider we speculated that it was a young scorpion?? Maybe Runningwolf will know? It was scary and moved unbelieveably fast...we killed 3 in one night!! I lived there a year and never saw one of these critters

Ever observant I noticed my brother was wearing a shirt that matched the beer he was drinking and their advertisement on the wall. I wish it had turned out better.

Ever observant I noticed my brother was wearing a shirt that matched the beer he was drinking and their advertisement on the wall. I wish it had turned out better.

I wish I had taken better photos of the Joshua trees! I love them!!!

I wish I had taken better photos of the Joshua trees! I love them!!!


MT.SHASTA FOR ORDINARY SPARROW

MT. SHASTA FROM RAYS

MT.SHASTA FROM ROAD

CLOUDS BY SHASTA

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ANNA MAE AQUASH 58/JANCITA EAGLE DEER MEETS ex-GOVERNOR BILL JANKLOW (PART I)

All excerpts are in italics and from THE UNQUIET GRAVE by Steve Hendricks.

I had to make another attempt to tell the story of Jancita Eagle Deer only all together instead of spread out over several chapters and without interruptions. Also without anger in my heart.

Once upon a time there was a little girl named Jancita  who lived on the Rosebud Indian Reservation. Indian reservations were created by very greedy white men and the greedy women who choose to sleep with them. As Americans we know the story of the Brady Bunch isn’t true…childhood is full of pain and hurt, wounds and scars, sprinkled between moments of carefree and wonderful moments. I think that Indians on Pine Ridge lived the Brady Bunch Negative Extreme…instead of families coming together the bad greedy white men rip them apart. Stole their children and sent them to houses of horror  called boarding schools. If you can imagine Satan running a boarding school….well it is probably worse than your imagination. Mothers and Father’s are helpless as greedy men and women kidnap their children re-name them in the name of Christianity (although Christ himself  would have nothing to do with the insanity of such loveless actions) subjected to all manner of abuse, readily scorned and attempts  made to scour their memory of who they really were.

Young Jancita attended one of these little houses of horror and on

“Saturday night in January 1967, Jancita Eagle Deer was checked out of her dormitory at the Rosebud Boarding School in Mission, South Dakota, by Bill Janklow. Eagle Deer was a full-blooded Lakota with bobbed hair of pitch, eyelashes of a length other girls would sell fingers for, a full cheeked smile, and a frame of pleasing proportions. She was fifteen. Her parents had been unable to care for her, owing to the same alcoholism and despair that had cleaved Anna Mae Aquash from her parents she had been placed with foster parents, John and Yvonne Arcoren, With the help of attorneyJanklow, the Arcorens were in the process of adopting Eagle Deer. Janklow had also helped Eagle Deer gain admittance to the BIA boarding school in Mission where he lived, and since the Arcorens lived twenty miles away in St. Francis, Janklow assumed an avuncular posture toward the girl. On that Saturday night, her brought her home for dinner with his family, after which she was to go to a dance. At five minutes before eight-the time would assume some importance- Janklow drove her the half-mile downtown, but the dance hall was unlit: they were too early.

“We might as well drive around until the dance starts,” Janklow said.

“Can I go to a movie?” Eagle Deer said.

He replied, in her version of the story, “Wouldn’t you rather drink with me?”

“I’d rather go to the dance.”

They may have briefly driven around the town, a sprinkling of bruised buildings and rutted streets that would not have sustained much driving, but soon they headed west into the countryside on U.S. Highway 18. A few miles from town, he turned the car north on a dirt section-line track and in the story Eagle Deer told-allof which Janklow has repeatedly and vehemently denied- drove until he reached a small rise where a gate blocked their progress…..

He reached across her seat, pushed a lever, and as the seat fell back pushed her back with it. She tried to get up but he held her down.

“The first time I saw you in my office, I was crazy about you,” he said. “And I have been ever since.” He asked her to come away with him.

She said he had a wife and children.

“To hell with them. I’ll get a divorce.”

Not knowing what else to say, she said his wife was nice and he shouldn’t divorce her, but he was unbuttoning her blouse and seemed not to hear. She hit him and said she wanted to go back to town, but he kept unbuttoning, so she kept hitting.

“Goddamn, what are you so frightened about?” he said. “I won’t hurt you.”

Funny how men think that rape will not hurt a girl….this is common among child molesters and rapists.

he got her blouse unbuttoned, unbuckled his belt, and unzipped his pants. He raised her skirt and tried to pull down her underwear. She was flailing, and it took some doing to get the underwear off, but at last he mounted her. The rape, according to Jancita Eagle Deer of the eighth grade, lasted about ten minutes. What she felt or thought, whether she  continued to struggle or went limp, what precisely her assailant was alleged to have done-the sounds and smells and touch of her particular hell-is nowhere recorded.

When Janklow was sated, he got off her and told her to put her underwear on. She did and pulled her skirt back down and buttoned her blouse. He reassembled himself, put the car in gear, and started back to town. The dashboard clock read 8:50

They were silent until Janklow took three dollar bills from his wallet and geve them to her. She wouldn’t tell anyone, would she?

She took the money without comment.

He said he was going to Denver on Wednesday and asked if she would come along.

“If I could take one of my girlfriends,” she said.

“Forget it.”

They drove on in silence.

“What if I wanted to check you out of the dorm. What would you do?”

“I don’t know.”

When they arrived downtown, he let her out at the dance hall and told her to come back home after the dance. She did not. Next morning, he saw her on the street with friends, ordered her into his car, and drove her home. He sent his wife to the store (?? can you imagine??? that’s why I’m not married!!!) and yelled at Eagle Deer for staying out all night. She asked him to take her back to school. At one o’clock on Sunday afternoon he did, and she went directly to a dormitory matron, Catherine Bordeaux, who could see she had been crying. Eagle Deer said she had been raped and told the foregoing story.

“Are you sure what you’re saying is true?” Bordeaux said when Eagle Deer had finished. “A false statement could get you in a lot of trouble.”

“He took advantage of me,” Eagle Deer said. “And I have proof.”

She unbuttoned her shirt, revealing what Bordeaux described as a nickel-sized “discoloration of the skin” on her upper left breast. Another hickey was visible on the right side of her neck. Eagle Deer credited both to Janklow.

While they were talking, the phone rang. It was Janklow, and he asked to talk to Eagle Deer, but Bordeaux said the girl was distraught and didn’t want to speak with him. She hung up and went to tell her supervisor, (Today she should have immediately called the police. And then notified her supervisor.) Kaye Lord, about Eagle Deer’s claim. while Lord and Bordeaux were talking, an aide rushed up to them and said that Janklow had stormed into the office where Eagle Deer was waiting and that it sounded “like big trouble in there”- the girl crying, the man hollering. Lord went in to the office and sent Eagle Deer out. (Should have sent him out) When the tearful girl emerged, she told Bordeaux in the hallway, “Mr. Janklow told me not to get him into trouble. He said he would buy me everything I wanted.”

Inside the office, Kay Lord found janklow pacing. She said, “I think you had better tell me your side of the story.”

He agreed. He said the night before, Eagle Deer had had supper with his family, after which she had asked to have a couple of drinks. He had said no. A little before eight, she asked if she could go to the dance, and a few minutes later he drove her downtown. Because the dance hall was darkened, he wouldn’t let her out of the car. She asked if he would buy her peppermint schnapps, and he said, “Of course not.” They drove for maybe thirty-five minutes.At about ten minutes to nine, he let her off at  the dance hall and told her to come home by a quarter of two. She didn’t, and he picked her up in Mission the next morning. In the afternoon he dropped her at her dormitory. That was it. He asked to see Eagle Deer.

Lord said it would be too upsetting and suggested he leave. After he did, she called Eagle Deer back into the office and asked to hear her side. Eagle Deer told the same story she had told Bordeaux and showed Lord the hickey on her breast. Lord called Eagle Deer’s stepparents and the school’s principal, but not for several hours did she call the BIA police, and not until Monday morning, thirty-six hours after the alleged rape, did a doctor at the Rosebud Hospital examine Eagle Deer.(That is so heartbreaking that adults running the boarding school could choose hour after hour to take the wrong action.)

On that Monday an investigator of the BIA, Peter Pitchlynn began an inquiry, and on Wednesday he made a report to the FBI. The FBI made its own investigation and made a report to the U.S. attorney. A month later, an assistant U.S. attorney wrote the FBI that “there is insufficient evidence to support the allegations. of the victims, and said allegations. are unfounded.” Janklow was not prosecuted.

to be continued…..




MYSTERIOUS CAMPING PHOTO/CROWN ROYAL

When I first saw this photograph I thought I don’t remember drawing any faces..then I picked up my sketch book and went through it. No faces, looked closer at the photo and figured out it was a messy ink drawing of  the landscape.

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Here is the sketch..It’s just the reflection of the lantern on the ink..

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…or maybe not…

Now getting to the Crown Royal (that isn’t a bottle of water I’m drinking on the table its unmelted ice with whisky poured in. One has to be innovative when camping! I could not find a liquor store that carried any decent whiskey…not one damn bottle of Pendleton from Pahrump, NV to Bishop, CA…can you believe that…and believe me I stopped at every single store that sold liquor….so Crown Royal it was. I used to think it was good. Now its like drinking piss water…not that I have ever been reduced to drinking piss water but this was pretty damned close!

But you know when you have a bottle of bad whiskey at least you can put it in your coffee in the morning. Actually I haven’t had a drink since I came back from vacation..I probably should it might clear away the abundance of fighting that has been going on in my head…or as my shrink used to say “I’m medicating myself!”


FULL METAL JACKET/DADISMS

I love getting movies from Netflix they have a huge selection to order and also a big selection of movies you can watch on the computer.

Recently my friend and fellow blogger Ordinary Sparrow put up a post about the movie FULL METAL JACKET. I couldn’t remember if I watched it before. I hadn’t.I love getting movie recommendations from interesting people. Some of the best books and movies I have come across was because someone recommended them to me. Netflix recommends movies based on your ratings of other movies….sometimes they get it right and other times they are way off.

The beginning was quite amusing with the insults and humerous lyrics to bootcamp songs. Having grown up with a father who spent 20 years in the old school Navy…I could relate

DAD

DAD

Dadisms

GET YOUR ASS OUT OF REVERSE

YOU’D COMPLAIN IF THEY HUNG YOU WITH A NEW ROPE

STOP TALKING OUT YOU’RE ASS

YOUR NOT AFRAID OF HARD WORK YOU’D LAY DOWN RIGHT BESIDE IT AND GO TO SLEEP

DO YOU THINK I WORK SO YOU KIDS CAN HAVE FUN…no…NO WHAT???? no Sir.

IF YOU CAN’T FLOAT YOU DON’T HAVE ANY BUSINESS BEING IN THE WATER

THE MEEK SHALL INHERIT SIX FEET OF EARTH

I’M TALKING ABOUT YOU NOT TO YOU

A FARTIN’ HORSE WILL NEVER TIRE, A FARTIN’ MAN S’ THE ONE TO HIRE

one of my favorites

THE THOUSAND ISLANDS BELONG TO THE CANADIANS…I WISH THEY WOULD TAKE THEIR GODDAMNED SALAD DRESSING BACK. (he wasn’t a fan of that flavor)

Back to the movie…

It depicted the trauma of war on the psyche pretty well and the ways that soldiers cope with the insanity and brutality.

But a thought crossed my mind that wars are going to end then would be soldiers need to stop participating in such actions. We cannot expect our corporate run government to make the right decisions…they haven’t done so yet. I wonder what it would be like if there just weren’t enough people willing to fight? Probably we would see a our government quickly enslave its people. It seems that the object of war today is to make money. The corporations are happy with the way things are going because winning is not the object. This long drawn out siphon of money from the tax payers is the goal, in addition to widening the gap between the working class and the CEO’S of these companies. It does not matter the outcome as long as money is being made.


DESERT SKIES III

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I LOVE CROP CIRCLES!!

I have never seen a “woven” one!  from CROP CIRCLE CONNECTOR

Here are more of my favorites..

this one looks like a kokopelli


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