NEGATIVE ENERGY

Lately I have encountered a lot of negative energy…when you encounter it you make a choice to feed yourself or ignore it. Occasionally I gorge but luckily have the self introspection to bring myself back. I am aware of the watcher. Much of my life these days is spent watching myself..I used to have these great battles with my ego and would overcome it for a time and then it would strikeback with a vengeance that I could not stand up to. One of the millions of books I own on overcoming the ego suggested not fighting the ego but observing it and being aware…so that is what I have been doing for quite a few years. 90% of the time I am aware and watching..I may not see the whole picture but its there. The other 10%??? OUCH !

Recently  everything was out of balance…probably from before the vacation..Negative energy if you choose not to feed on it still has to be dealt with and I’m not good at that part so It built up and yesterday I crashed could barely move and spent so much time in bed I hurt from it…finally in the wee hours of the morning the negative energy started lifting. I could feel it wafting away no longer oppressing me. Mental exhaustion is so much harder to deal with than physical exhaustion.

Not quite a 100% but feeling much better.